Hello!

Sorry I’ve not been around. I kind of went and got myself grounded. Such a teenage thing to do, I know, and so embarassing because I’ve not been grounded in like 2 or 3 years. I did deserve it though – I was an awful horrible brat of a bitch to Jade Rachel and said some vile things. None of which I really meant, not at all – they all just came out in the heat of the moment.

We’ve sat and talked and everything and I know she knows I didn’t mean it. But she also says she knows why I said them and stuff. So we’re cool again. I’m mostly just embarassed.

I’m just getting my phone and internet and computer back again now. Oh how I missed them!

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Goal updates

I started 2016 with two sets of goals – 7 Things In 2016 and 101 Things In 1001 Days, and since we’ve reached the end of February, I thought it might be an idea to check in and see how I’m doing.

My 7 Things In 2016:
Learn how to write calligraphy I haven’t even looked to see if there’s any books in the library or youtube tutorials. This may have to be a task to pick up once my exams are done
Start blogging regularly Yes! I think I’ve done this really well. I’m quite happy with my blogging.
Stop biting my nails 😦
Take a vacation to Rome I will be going in the summer!
Find a way to be more organized I’ve managed to keep both my bedrooms tidy all year so that’s a start
Try sushi My Aunt Emily has promised to take me but we’ve not made it yet
Be more patient, especially with myself I’m still working on how to do this

As for my 101 Things In 1001 Days:
Completed – 7
Write a list of 101 things to do in 1001 days!
Leave an inspirational note inside a book for someone to find
Buy a lottery ticket
Hug 10 people in one day
Hug someone on National Hug Day
Send a handwritten letter
Bake a chocolate cake
Keep my room tidy for a month

In progress – 7
Graduate college
Donate blood
Answer the “50 Questions That Will Free Your Mind”
Watch 26 movies I’ve never seen starting with each letter of the Alphabet
Read 26 books I’ve never read starting with each letter of the alphabet
Read 100 books
Start University

While you and I are running out of time

Sometimes I really wish I had a time-turner so I could get more stuff done. More hours in the day would be great. Of course, I bet that if I did have more hours I still wouldn’t get the chance to do the things I want to do in them.

I miss doing all the extra-curricular stuff I could do before. I miss having the time to ride, to swim, to do gymnastics, to practice karate, to see Chelsea play. Even just the time to play with Caden Bryce or read with him.

I get up. I get on the tube to college (and read). I go to college. I get on the tube home (and read). I do homework. I do extra reading. Sometimes I get time to come online – although often it gets done on a few minutes between classes, or on a free period. And then it feels like it’s time for bed before it all starts again.

It’s not even a lack of time management. It’s just the time of year. I’m only a couple of months away from my A-Level exams. Coursework is all due. All of my teachers want all of my time, all of my effort and I have a couple of really heavy workload courses.

I always make time on a Friday night though to go to the cinema. Sometimes with friends, sometimes with Jade Rachel and Erin and Dad and Jimmy (and sometimes Caden Bryce) It all depends on what’s coming out. Tomorrow my BFF Georgia & I are going to see either Deadpool or Pride & Prejudice & Zombies.

Weekends seem to be filled with sleep and coursework. And then I have to be very particular about what I do because there’s only so many hours in the day. Usually I go swimming because that’s a lot easier to fit into a spare moment than having to schedule around the gymnastics or karate classes. I always try and have Sunday afternoons free so I can just chill, watch a DVD, do some colouring… just properly relax before everything starts again on Monday morning.

I possibly didn’t schedule the start of the 101 Things In 1001 Days at the best time, because there’s also fitting in the things I want to do there.

I don’t mean to sound ungrateful or like a whiney little bitch, I really don’t. I love everything that I’m doing, I love being in college, having the opportunity to study etc etc. I guess I might be a little stressed and I know I’m tired. I just miss doing some of the things I love, some of the things that I feel define part of who I am.

Old soul

Sometimes I feel a lot older than 17.
Sometimes I feel a lot younger than 17.
I get people tell me I should act my age, to stop liking stuff I’m too old for, to stop doing things I’m too young to do
I’ve never been 17 before so how am I supposed to know how to act and how feel?

Erin tells me I’m an old soul, that I’m much more mature than most of my friends. I’ve asked her what she means and she says it’s because I’m not afraid to be on my own, because I love to learn, because I think before I do things and have everything all planned out.

I guess that’s true. I mean, a lot of my friends still don’t really know what they want to do when they finish college and I’ve got this big plan for everything. I like having tangible goals that I can work towards, it all makes sense to me.

And no, a lot of my friends laugh at some of the stuff I love to do. They don’t read for fun like I do. They think it’s weird that I enjoy baking – they eat what I make though! I get told knitting or doing wordsearches is for old people.

But… I don’t feel like I’m old. Sure, I feel like I know who I am and what I like. I do get distracted by new shiny things too though. I feel like my mood swings and ‘teenage angst’ are more controlled, and I’m calmer than I was, even a year or so ago.

In other ways though, I’m a pretty typical teenager. I worry about getting good grades in school and fashion and make-up and boys (and girls) and if I’ve got any zits and if I look fat. I love pop music and going to the cinema with my friends. I love sleeping.

Who makes the rules though? Who says that I can’t like certain things because I’m too young for them. Or too old for them. Why do ‘they’ say that I can’t have goals for the future and enjoy knitting and love Disney and Miley Cyrus and vampires and dinosaurs and pirates and dolphins and superheroes and baking and supporting my football team and doing wordsearches and like spending time with my friends and being alone?

National Handwriting Day

Today is National Handwriting Day

Handwriting refers to a person’s unique style of writing characters created with a writing utensil such as a pen or pencil. Handwriting is separate from calligraphy or typeface.

Because each person’s handwriting is unique, it can be used to verify a document’s writer. The deterioration of a person’s handwriting is also a symptom or result of certain diseases. Even identical twins write differently. A person’s handwriting is also relatively stable and changes little over time. Because handwriting is relatively stable, a change in the handwriting can be indicative of the nervousness or intoxication of the writer.

Handwriting that is hard to read or unreadable due to the deformity, or illegibility of characters is commonly called worst. A common stereotype is that doctors have bad handwriting. According to Time, doctors’ sloppy handwriting kills more than 7,000 people annually.

To celebrate National Handwriting Day, I wrote a letter to my grandparents (Jade Rachel’s parents) who live in Wales. They don’t have emails so it’s the only real way to keep in touch with them. I got some fun stationery from them for Christmas so it was nice to use it, and glittery gel pens too. I thanked them for my Christmas presents, told them about Christmas holiday from school, a bit about the new Star Wars film, and about my 7 goals for 2016.

Writing a handwritten letter was one of my 101 Things In 1001 Days so I’ve been able to cross another item off the list! 🙂